went over to visit my aunt's family to see how they were coping with the loss!!

it felt good to see all of them!!

yet i felt sad when i saw them!!

it felt good to talk to my uncle about life n such!

but it was difficult seeing him trying to put on a strong front so that we dont worry too much about him!!

it felt good to see my lil cousins smiling!!

but it was painful knowing that they're crying behind that smile!!

FUCK YOU CANCER!! SERIOUSLY!!

IF YOU HAD A MOM ILL FUCK HER TOO!!

i definitely need perseverance!!

damn!

ive been too caught up with the shit that has been sending seismic waves through my life that ive forgotten the importance of this blog!!

its exactly like what November said other than the fact that its gives him strength cause it actually GIVES ME THE STRENGTH!!

it puts my mind in place!

it gives me a focus!

it gives my brain enough stimulus to keep dementia at bay(for now!!)

Fuck i needed this damn post badly man!!

Ive lost yet another loved one to cancer!!!

yeah FUCK that shit!

Life is never easy!

even if you're a rich ass

or smart a ass

or just a blonde ass!!

oh wait sorry, the blonde's life is pretty easy!!

just spreading the legs!!

but the point here is that what does not kill us will make us stronger!

So when the going gets tough, the tough gets going!

cant think of anymore cliches already!

fuck!

a good man becomes great because he knows when to pull up his socks n also when to pull down his pants!!

the last couple of days have been really rocky!

it has me feeling on the edge all the time!

like im gonna just erupt anytime!

Optical 88 is really really getting on my nerves!

fucking incapable management!!!

I dont take disrespect lightly!!

Im on the verge of losing yet another loved one to cancer!

Fuck this shit man!!

A fresh new start!!

not one that im totally happy to embark on.

nevertheless i still have to look forward!

i lost a girlfriend BUT found a new best friend (that sounds utterly gay & 'secondary school')

there is something else i learnt from this whole ordeal!

and that is im NUMB!!

i dont feel pain anymore!

i think ive lost it!

ive became a heartless creature!!

i sat in the ward talking to my aunt who probably has weeks to live and yet i could not feel a thing!

too much has happened in life that ive become a ZOMBIE!!!

anyone's mom a ZOMBIE??!!

firstly the phrase "time flies" is not a cliche!!

it really does!

when we decided the date for our break up, we had six months left!

now we have like what?? six tide cycles left?!

fuck man!!

its the penultimate day i don't have much to say rite now!!

i kinda just hate this feeling!!

FEDOR LOSING HIS FIRST FIGHT IN TEN YEARS IS NOT HELPING EITHER!!

AAAAAAAAAAAARGGHH!!

Zouk this saturday dudes!! dont fucking back out man!!

LOVE ALL YA MOMS MAN!!

6 DAYS LEFT!!

one of the greatest regret i have is that i never had the opportunity to have many night outings like the ones above!

i was more than willing to!

but she was a NERD who couldn't go out at nite!!

HA!!

the few times we really did manage to go out were ones to cherish except for the one i was drunk!!

LOL!!

SO WHO'S MOM?!

*you just gotta love what's written over my head*

7 DAYS LEFT!

have u ever met that someone whom you thought may be THE one?!

i think i have!

would you wake up at 230 am to wake your other half up?

she would!!

anytime n everytime!!

every single day she's my damn alarm clock!!

anytime of the day she's there to wake me up, be it at work or in the toilet!

she wakes up just to wake me up!!

seems like a simple act but it takes alot of devotion to do it every single time!

she only sleeps after making sure im safe n sound or SIMPLY DRUNK!!

DAMN this is gonna be tough!!

I NEED YOUR MOM!!!

8 DAYS LEFT!!

why there isnt any other way out of this!!

my family is a staunch Buddhist family

&

hers a staunch Muslim family!

So neither side gonna convert!!

CIVIL MARRIAGE??

yeah at first everything could go well!

till we have kids!

which side are the kids gonna pray to?

east or west?

I would definitely want them to be Buddhist n she would definitely want her kids to be Muslims!

start of a whole line of frictions?!

most likely!

which would slowly lead to other fights related to religion!!

and for all you know the whole marriage could be destroyed because of RELIGION!!

so being prudent, i had to make the decision!!

thou its so called a mutual one, its never easy for a girl to let go of the guy she loves!!

SO, i have to be a man and do the right thing! 34.50!!

9 DAYS LEFT!!

my beautiful monster!

well its really hard to find a girl who fits into your criteria of an ideal wife!

1)devoted

2)loyal

3)children loving

4)always giving in(this is especially impt to actually match an ego like mine)

5)vice-free!!

almost everything is just perfect!

ALMOST!

except for the fact that she's a muslim!!

DAMN!!

it has all boiled down to religion!!

i aint giving up my Buddha for anyone!

not even the girl i love!

she aint gonna give up hers either!

SO THERE WE ARE!!

on our final lap towards seperate lives!!

FML!

ILL START DOING YOUR MOMS IN 9 DAYS TIME!!

MY BEST KEPT SECRET!!

yes!

thats my girl rite there!

she's been there for me ever since Monica passed away.

She was there in a time when i felt the whole world had shunned me!

things just took off from then!

but sadly as always, good things never last in my life!

ha!

im not gonna start whining away about it!

but some things are just not meant to be!

will be blabbering more on this matter over the next few days!!

its just a very sad, sad end to a beautiful love story!

i think ive taken alot of shit from a group of people!

yeah there are nice people in that group of people BUT

most of them are deluded and FUCKING TALK TOO MUCH CRAP!!

and i hope some people from that group get indicted!

like SERIOUSLY!!

PLEASE PROVE THEM GUILTY!!

ive been waiting for this moment for very very very long!!

they accused everyone else of wrong doings except themselves!!

they have been proven wrong many times as well!!

BUT THIS,

WILL BE AN ULTIMATE BLOW!!

see where the fuck they gonna hide their cunt-faces!!

its a lesson!!

BE HUMBLE LIKE US!!!

***if u dont know whom or what im referring to, DONT ASSUME!! my close friends know WTF im talking about here!!!***

cant believe my fucking luck!

the whole of last week when ICE wasnt there i could only hit about $800 - $900 daily!!

then when she's back i can fucking hell hit $1500!!

now what is Haze gonna make of this situation by just sitting at her desk and assuming?!

that i am incapable!

FUCK!

the whole of last week it was raining during lunch which kept the lunch crowd glued to their damn office seats!

just my darn luck!!

DAMN I LEFT MY HORSESHOE IN YOUR MOM!!

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