RACISM!!

DAY 25 - 27

RACISM!!

this is a topic that is very close to my heart!

people who know me well know how much im affected by this!

when i was brought up as child mum told me to respect all races!

the govt made us sing songs of racial harmony!

but where is the harmony again??

where is the respect again??

I = INDIAN!

when a child does something wrong I am used as a tool to quieten them down! "you dont keep quiet hor this 'UNCLE' later catch you"

when I am walking on the street a young girl about the age of 5 calls out "HEY APPU NEH"! oh wow am I supposed to wave back with a smiling face!

addtional words of abuse I have suffered

"anneh"

"bangla"

"or lang"

"hei ren"

and many more fuckin shit which u mother fuckers think is just a joke! but the fucking fact is that it is not!

NOT AT ALL!

im getting sick of this society!

very sick!

its really getting on my nerves!

and to make matters worse people whom i consider friends actually do that too!

last warning to those friends!

i can be harsh too!

im just trying to keep my cool coz ure pussies!

if u were a guy it would be a different thing!

FUCK RACISM!

ITS FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYY OVER!!!

DAY 24

FINALLY!

yeah finally!

OMFG!

this might be just another end of exam period for many!

but it isnt to me!

no one knows how tough the last few weeks were!

TRY QUITTING SMOKING DURING EXAM PERIOD!

fuck I DID IT!!

MOTHER FUCKING HELL
YYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!

but the only blot today was the fuckin attachment meeting!!

wtf!!

im a STUDENT not a SLAVE sia!!

if i knew i wud have gone for the overseas ITP sia!

knn ccb!!

10 to 12 hr shifts just for a miserly 440 bucks!!

CHI BAI!!

SO FUCKING TYPICAL OF THIS INDUSTRY!

an industry which runs with a face of a health industry but its after all just another money minded fuckin business!

BULLSHIT!

Complication!

DAY 22 & 23

i need to fight!

damn i really need to fight!

i cant wait to fight!

its another 20 hours before i can fight!

ENDURE!!

its an ADDICTION!

Complications!

Complicated!

complicating!

complicates!

complicate!

complicater!

for those who dun understand whats going on,

just dun bother coz its really COMPLICATED!

My IDOL!

DAY 21

3 weeks!

21 days!

504 hours!

30240 minutes!

1814400 seconds!

PERIOD!!

APRECIATE GREATNESS

PATHO WHAT??!!

DAY 20

woah!

20 fuckin days people!

20 fuckin days!

who wud have tot rite!

ha!

not even myself some time ago!

but yeah!

here i am!

after 20 fuckin days!

without no freakin urge to even put a cigarette in my mouth despite being in the so called 'STRESS PERIOD'!!

20 fuckin days!

woohoo!!

Grey Green lesion!

DAY 19

fuck la!

it feels so fucked up without my standard dose of BJJ on a thursday!!

crap!!

by right i shud have been there tryin to submit a bastard or atleast throw the bastard around!!

GRRR!!

SCREW PATHOFUCKALOLOGY!!

and im not a PRO!!

i just seem to like it! thou at this point i hate it!

fuck but u dudes better stop smoking ure asses of or ure gonna end up blind by 65!! im serious!!

B.V!

DAY 18

this is the first time in 9 years ive not smoked a stick of cigarette after my exam!

I really really am getting the hang of it!

OH FUCKIN HELL YEAH!!

but fuck BV la cb!

no one else to blame but myself for freakin slackin so much the past few days! yeah but honestly i dun think anyone has the mood for the current exams! other than maybe windi la!! who of course doesnt belong to the human category!

ah screw all that la im off to beat up ting fong yet again!!

poor bugga just gets beaten up all the time!

My Current Sex toy! Ting Fong!

THE 17TH!

DAY 17

the most important day of every month

the most miserable day of every month

the most painful day of every month

YET the most looked forward to day of every month!

WHY???

coz this is the day i get to see her!

this is the day i cry for her!

this is the day my heart aches for her!

this is the day i pray that she is still by my side!

this is THE 17TH!!

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DAY 16

well it was a relatively easy day in the sense of fighting the urge because i got to FIGHT!! woohoo!!

well today's lessons were mostly technical!

Defending front headlock

Right hand over shoulder

left hand grabbing on to locking arm

move sideways to his right

position leg behind his leg

use thrust to push him down

side step

climb over to full mount position

place forearm on neck and press down

pull neck out of lock!

TOUGH DAY!!

DAY 15

tough tough day!

really tough!

but i pulled through unscathed!

i stayed away from the bloody cigarettes n ALCOHOL!!

YES! I AM A FIGHTER!!

Valentine's

DAY 12, 13 n 14

wat a day for me

14 days of fresh air

14 days of repair works on my lungs

14 days of toxinless blood

14 days of heart attack risk free life

14 days of TRUE bliss!

WHY ??
COZ NO SMOKING ALL FIGHTING!!

well for thursday's update

1) BRIDGE WITH ROLL

bridge hard

grab forearm with outside arm

tuck it in to chest

suppport with inside arm

flip over

push triceps back

and keep heads down

2) BREAKING GRIPS

on mount

Thrown froward - land on plams and stay down

slowly use use arms to crawl back

Pushed backwards - slide one arm in first, break grip

slide second arm in, break grip

land forward trapping arms

Thrown sideways - arm opposite to direction thrown

grab onto the bastard's neck

push that elbow into his chest

arm on the thrown side extends out fully

crawl back with extended arms

while other arm continues to

apply pressure with elbow

3) TOP CONTROL MOVEMENT

Elbow used to bend neck to one side

effectively bends the spine

same side leg extends straight

opposite leg flips out and lands on feet with knees bent

flip body to chest to chest position n legs tucked in

extend legs out with hips down but weight on chest

move around using feet

maintain weight on chest

once over to the other side just jump in and push his arm back

tuck adjacent leg tight to the body

opposite leg goes foot first over body

pull body over his and keep it close

Another module down!

DAY 10 & 11

have been too freakin busy recently.

seriously.

but it feels so much better now that ive only got 4 papers left out of the millions we had in the past few days.

block jab! step back!

kick inner thigh with left leg!

land forward and and right cross!

rocking chair movement!

left hook!

shoot!

hook right leg over the bastard's left!

lean forward!

stick head in at all times!

get close!

shoot!

grab both legs!

life him sideways!

its becoming less meaningful to write about my anti smoking campaign becoz im not even finding it an issue nowadays!

it just seems so easy!

BIO WHAt ??!!

DAY 9

awesome feeling yet again

seriously dunno how to describe the feeling

its just feels so good

i feel so good about everything ever since i gave up this FUCKIN HABIT!!

seriously!!

LOVIN IT!!

FAilURe WAs NEver AN OPtion!

DAY 8

FAILURE??!!

a word that messes with every mind on this planet

whats a failure?

who's a failure?

am i a failure??

HELL NO MUDAFUCKA!!!

yeah screw biostats!

im not gonna fail it!

FUCK U!

ill kick ass tomr!

there is this fire raging inside of me!

i dunno wether its normal for everyone

does everyone have this kinda rage in them??

or is it a selected few?

the few whose name spells as follows

FEDOR EMELIANENKO

GEORGE ST PIERRE

PREM MUNIANDY

yeah it must be!

oh HELL YEAH!!

im loving every moment of this!

a whole new week into my new lease of life!

life cant get any better!

its not about training and fighting!

its about training FOR FIGHTING!!!!

TroUBLEd MInd

DAY 7

On a day when im supposed to be like so proud of myself im still down with fever, fuckin cough and running nose!

to make matters worse im still stuck with biostats!

its proving to be a really tough ride for me!

maybe its all karma for ruining my body with all those nicotine, alcohol and drugs!

now its time to suffer!

i can and i will do it!

there is no turning back from here!

all out mothafucka!

im gonna keep it real!

only aim is to knock out any guy with a punch!

i will live that dream but till then i shall perservere!

fuck BIOSTATS!!

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DAY 6

well i guess i aint have much to say today!

no urge! no smoke!

thats the best news everyday for the past 6 days!

i really cant believe how simple it is!

i dun understand why i had been suffering so much to kick this habit when it is actually quite easy!!

all i had to do was to listen to my heart!

but yeah i aint gonna count the eggs before they hatch!

ill just push myself harder!

for anti-smoking and for fighting!

lastly i m so proud of myself for getting24/25 for GEMS test!

narcissistic i know!!

StiLL SiCk!!

DAY 5

yet another success story on the anti-smoking part BUT i am still fucking down with FLU!!

my school aint helping in anyway by giving me so much stress!

tests after tests!!

assignments after assignments!

HOW TO TAHAN SIA??!!

KNN!!

still got the withdrawal symptoms

but i aint gonna give up!

im getting stronger by the days and im getting all the support in need!!

thats enough!!

ill prove my critics FUCKING wrong!!

FUCKING SICK LA CHI BAI!!!

DAY 4

fuck la chi bai knn ccb pcb!!

fourth day into my mission and im dying from the withdrawal symptoms!! and it had to come at truly the worst possible time!!

WHEN IM FUCKING HAVING MY EXAMS!!

i seriously dunno what this lecturers are thinking sometimes!

they cramp up all our tests and exams together till i cant even breathe!

why??

do u people just love to see students suffer??

is it a form of sadistic fetish??

FuCKiNg BuLLsHIT!!

ARGH!!

CCB!!!!!!!!

A reAl FiGHter WiLL NEveR FLiNCH NO MAtTEr WHat OPPOses Him!!

MMA LOvE!!

DAY 3

WOOHOOOOOOOO!!!

yeah babay thats how i feel after a day of training!

training to be a fighter that is!

a cold hearted one at it!(i still have a heart thou)

I JUST LOVE IT!!!!

knee!! knee!! come on !!

tuck that leg in!! keep it tight!! go! go! go!

dun let down ure guard!! keep it up at ALL times!!

knee forward!! NOT UPWARDS!! GOGOGO!!!

point ure toe to the ground!!

thrust ure hips!!!

muay thai clinch!!

step back!! pull head down!!

left leg forward!!

right hand grab ankle!! left elbow push chest down!!

right leg step forward!!

fling leg to left!! place shin on the abdomen!!

press down shoulders!!

BREAK HIS FACE!!!!!!

MUaHAhaHAhaHAHA!!!

IT HAS BEEn All GOod SO FAr!!
SMokING IS lIKE TOtaLly OuTTa MA MInd NOW!!

THAt FEeLS SO GOoD!!

THou THE WiTHdRAWal IS StARtING TO MAniFEst!!!

BUt HOnEStlY i DUn GivE A FLyiNG fUCk!!

COZ IM A FIGHTER!!! WOOHHOOOO!!!

What else do you need other than mummy's love!

DAY 2

It has really been a long fucking day!

Kinda expected it thou!

Screw that slut!

She just has to do it rite!

KNN!

fuck im indian and im proud of that!

ive got tattoos and im proud of that!

i stand up for myself and im proud of that!

so screw u slut!

i dun give no shit to u!

Enough of that slut coz mummy actually said she is so happy that i havent smoked in 2 days!

yeah it might sound kinda wierd comin outta me of all people but yeah nothing can beat mummy's love!

THE BATTLE COUNTINUES!!

Fuck this AInT EASy!!

GRRRRRRRRRRR!

ITs TOuGH!!

PErSErVEre!!

IVe GOT THE SUPPOrt!!

Ive GOT THE WIll!!

IVe GOT THE HEARt!! (of A LIoN THAt IS!!)

ANd BEcAusE PAin IS TEmpORArY AND GLoRY IS FOrEVER!!