My Battlefield, My War!

my first post on my new notebook is one which is heart wrenching!!

as many people know that the people who cared for me more than my own mother were my aunt & grandmother!!

i love these two people more than my own mother!!

my aunt was more like a mother to me!!

she gave me a shelter to LIVE in when my own mother kicked me out ages ago!!

she bailed me out whenever i got locked up!!

she paid the court my fine to get me released!!

she bought me a laptop when i needed to be enrolled in poly!!

the list just goes on!!

and now when its my turn to give back,

SHE HAS LESS THAN A MONTH TO LIVE!!!

SHE HAS END STAGE METASTATIC BREAST CANCER!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!

ive lost my dad,

ive lost my Monica,

ive lost another close aunt,

and now someone who has been a mother figure to me!!

WHY???

WHY??

WHY??

I can honestly say that no one else i personally know has gone through the kinda hell ive been through!!

LIFE's A BITCH ISNT IT??!!