first step to recovery from alcohol is admitting that you have an alcohol problem!

that youre possibly an alcoholic!

i think i am one now!!

its true that i dont drink everyday but there are times where i go on s drinking streak for like 10 days straight!!

lately after the passing of 2 of my beloved aunts, the problem has become worse!!

i need to stop!!

seriously stop!!

my dad died due to liver cirrhosis!!

i dont wanna be next!!

if your mom is drinking too much, plz ask her to stop too!!

i need the support of my friends to get over this!!

dunno if anyone watched a viral video circulating in Facebook about how one would react if they see a 'HANDICAPPED' person get abused by a stranger!!

it was really touching!!

it really relates alot to me as i also have an uncle at home who is mentally handicapped!!

if some mofo did call him a retard then ill have to spend the next 5 years in prison!!

afterall we are all HUMAN!!

we give respect & take respect!!

that was one viral video worth watching rather than that fucking NEVER SAY NO TO PANDA video!!

it was a fucking waste of my 2 mins!!

THE ONLY THING I WILL NEVER SAY NO TO IS SEX WITH MARIA SHARAPOVA!!

and of course YOUR MOM!!

tired!

sleepy!!

no updates!!

b lastly those who go for plastic surgery are desperados!!

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DAY 2

went perfectly fine!!

i miss my gym!!

i really really miss my gym!!

its been quite awhile since i went to my gym!!

its been about 12 hours!!

the personal trainer said i was arching my back but i din realise it leh!

always checked my form before i started!!

but why then??!!

fuck!!

maybe i lack mobility!!

i seriously need to start stretching!!

14 days of rehabilitation starts today!!

Started off with a 10 dollar haircut!!

HAHA!!

TING FONG should be next!!

My aunt would be really proud coz im a champ!!

this post is filled with totally unrelated content!!

HA!!

but i dont give a fuck!!

After every war there is a massive amount of recovery work to be done!!

mend a wounded heart!

straighten out a lost mind!

Fill up an empty soul!

regain a battered composure!

rehabilitate the weak body!

rediscover the fighting spirit!

J SITHI, WE MISS YOU!!

what more do i have to face??!

DAD = GONE!

MONICA = GONE!

JEEVA ATHAI= GONE!

J SITHI = GONE!!

Maybe im next?!

who knows??!!

my first post on my new notebook is one which is heart wrenching!!

as many people know that the people who cared for me more than my own mother were my aunt & grandmother!!

i love these two people more than my own mother!!

my aunt was more like a mother to me!!

she gave me a shelter to LIVE in when my own mother kicked me out ages ago!!

she bailed me out whenever i got locked up!!

she paid the court my fine to get me released!!

she bought me a laptop when i needed to be enrolled in poly!!

the list just goes on!!

and now when its my turn to give back,

SHE HAS LESS THAN A MONTH TO LIVE!!!

SHE HAS END STAGE METASTATIC BREAST CANCER!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!

ive lost my dad,

ive lost my Monica,

ive lost another close aunt,

and now someone who has been a mother figure to me!!

WHY???

WHY??

WHY??

I can honestly say that no one else i personally know has gone through the kinda hell ive been through!!

LIFE's A BITCH ISNT IT??!!