I AM LIKE SO BORED OF TALKING HERE!!

this blog is going down!!

real soon!!

i cant bring myself to blog anymore!!

no inspiration!!

no motivation!!

not much readers anyway!!

so why waste my time?!

haha!!

today is the day my heart pines for my angel!!

17th November!!

how am i ever supposed to forget?!

I have to admit that the pain has subsided but the scar can never be removed!!

worst part is i recently added more of those!! ha!!

FML!!

my brain is getting fried everyday just trying to get a grasp of the investment world!!

it is really the only way i can achieve my goal of becoming a millionaire!!

books on investments are really not your average harry potter crap!!

its really deep n it requires you to read word for word to understand the gist of every paragraph!!

damn its tiring but im loving it!!

i wanna be rich n i will be someday!!

yeah money may not be the most important thing in life, but without money you will not be able to enjoy the better things in life as well!!

a few my babies have finally embarked on their 2 years of torture!!

green n black faces,

green n black uniform,

green n black food,

green n black feces as well!!

good luck to them!!

mine's coming soon as well!!

im enlisting on the 15th of december 2003!!!

HA!!

anyway try this!!

Seriously LOL: Go to http://www.google.co.uk/maps and search "Tokyo to Vancouver" - Look at point 21

its not a virus!!

ITS FUCKING FUNNY!!!

FULL!!!

FULL!!!

FULL!!

FUCKING FULL!!

MY STOMACH IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE!!

FUCK!!

CANT BREATHE ALSO SIA!!

NEED A MASSAGE FROM YOUR MOM n MAYBE A LAP DANCE AFTER THAT!!

this is officially the most meaningless post ive made!!!

today i was looking through Stomp and as usual i was baffled by the stupid posts made by moronic stopmers!!!

the same old shit about people not giving up their reserved seats or making out in public or they saw their mom doing it with me in the car!!

but today's post simply nonsensical!!

a local poly had sent out a warning email on the dressing of their students!!

it was about girls dressing like they're going to the beach!!!

are u kidding me??

without girls dressed like that, what are guys supposed to look at?

the lecturers??

hot ones like the BALD EAGLE??? or THE PINOCCHIO??!!

fuck man!!

we need girls like that in school for the school to be successful man!!!

infact we should have a nude school with your mom as the Principal!!

When we were born, we were born human!!

along the way we were given an identitiy!

an identity which starts of with a name

then a race

then a religion

which then is the root of all evil!!!

along the way our parents teach us certain values,

along the way our teachers teach us certain values,

along the way the government teaches us certain values

and

along the way our friends teach us certain values!!

what we learn is more important than how much we learn!!

Education may have made us very successful people in our careers but our moral values are what makes us successful as human beings!!

we were first born as human before we became accountants or bankers or lawyers!!

so i guess we must first be a successful human before we try to be successful in anything else!!

its simple!!

we just have to love each other as humans!!

COZ WE ALL ARE!!

unless you're a dog with a special ability to use the internet and read blogs!!

please do take part in the ANONYMOUS POLL!!!! i would really like to know if i have enough support to keep this blog going!!

id catch a grenade,

Throw my hand on the blade,

Id jump in front of a train,

You know I'd do anything,

See I would go through all this pain,

take a bullet straight through my brain,

Yes I would die just too see you grandma!!

i really miss my grandma!!

really really miss her!!

fuck i just cant seem to function normally without her!!

never expected this blow!!

seriously NEVER!!

i was just not ready to let her leave!!

the house feels so empty!!

i miss hugging her!!

i miss having her waiting for me to come back home!!

i miss irritating her!!

i miss pushing her around in her wheelchair!!

i miss messing up her hair!!

i miss watching tv with her!!

I JUST FUCKING MISS HER!!!!

yeah i can totally understand that my GBBs wanna badly have a meetup!!

i really do too!!

i swear!!

but my life is on the rocks YET AGAIN!!

its nothing new to me seriously!!

but you guys should know how important my grandma is to me!!

second to none!!

thats why i wanna highlight a special nurse who really really impressed my whole family!!

my grandma is in lets say a semi conscious state!!

all the other bloody nurses just come in there and treat her like a dead meat!!!

FUCK!!

but this one nurse really really cares!!

she bothers to talk to my grandma thou she isnt responding!!

she rubs her head, her back!!

she explains to us what is happening!!

so now me n my cousins are going around filling up feedback forms n whatever not to really give her recognition for what she is doing!!

Her name is CHONG YAN CHEW from ward 68 SGH!!

do your part too if there is anything u could do!! lol!!

think im gonna send in an email to the CEO soon!!

These are the kinda nurses who live up to the title of NURSES, a title we should all respect!!

sorry brudders if ive been neglecting you dudes!!

i really miss u guys man!!

i dunno whats been happening to me?

im starting to hear voices in my head!!

ARGH!!

shit!!

"STOP DRINKING MOTHER FUCKER"

"LOVE YOUR BODY"

"STOP ABUSING YOUR BODY"

"ALCOHOL WILL ONLY MAKE YOU SICK & FAT"

"YOU HAVE A WEAK MIND"

OMFG!

am i becoming schizophrenic??

fuck!

no!!!

"PLAY, PLAY, PLAY, PLAY YOUR LANJIAO AH!!"

YOU PREGNANT AH??, YOU PREGNANT AH,???!!!!

no, im not crazy!

YOU ALL SIAO AH!!!

first step to recovery from alcohol is admitting that you have an alcohol problem!

that youre possibly an alcoholic!

i think i am one now!!

its true that i dont drink everyday but there are times where i go on s drinking streak for like 10 days straight!!

lately after the passing of 2 of my beloved aunts, the problem has become worse!!

i need to stop!!

seriously stop!!

my dad died due to liver cirrhosis!!

i dont wanna be next!!

if your mom is drinking too much, plz ask her to stop too!!

i need the support of my friends to get over this!!

dunno if anyone watched a viral video circulating in Facebook about how one would react if they see a 'HANDICAPPED' person get abused by a stranger!!

it was really touching!!

it really relates alot to me as i also have an uncle at home who is mentally handicapped!!

if some mofo did call him a retard then ill have to spend the next 5 years in prison!!

afterall we are all HUMAN!!

we give respect & take respect!!

that was one viral video worth watching rather than that fucking NEVER SAY NO TO PANDA video!!

it was a fucking waste of my 2 mins!!

THE ONLY THING I WILL NEVER SAY NO TO IS SEX WITH MARIA SHARAPOVA!!

and of course YOUR MOM!!

tired!

sleepy!!

no updates!!

b lastly those who go for plastic surgery are desperados!!

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DAY 2

went perfectly fine!!

i miss my gym!!

i really really miss my gym!!

its been quite awhile since i went to my gym!!

its been about 12 hours!!

the personal trainer said i was arching my back but i din realise it leh!

always checked my form before i started!!

but why then??!!

fuck!!

maybe i lack mobility!!

i seriously need to start stretching!!

14 days of rehabilitation starts today!!

Started off with a 10 dollar haircut!!

HAHA!!

TING FONG should be next!!

My aunt would be really proud coz im a champ!!

this post is filled with totally unrelated content!!

HA!!

but i dont give a fuck!!

After every war there is a massive amount of recovery work to be done!!

mend a wounded heart!

straighten out a lost mind!

Fill up an empty soul!

regain a battered composure!

rehabilitate the weak body!

rediscover the fighting spirit!

J SITHI, WE MISS YOU!!

what more do i have to face??!

DAD = GONE!

MONICA = GONE!

JEEVA ATHAI= GONE!

J SITHI = GONE!!

Maybe im next?!

who knows??!!

my first post on my new notebook is one which is heart wrenching!!

as many people know that the people who cared for me more than my own mother were my aunt & grandmother!!

i love these two people more than my own mother!!

my aunt was more like a mother to me!!

she gave me a shelter to LIVE in when my own mother kicked me out ages ago!!

she bailed me out whenever i got locked up!!

she paid the court my fine to get me released!!

she bought me a laptop when i needed to be enrolled in poly!!

the list just goes on!!

and now when its my turn to give back,

SHE HAS LESS THAN A MONTH TO LIVE!!!

SHE HAS END STAGE METASTATIC BREAST CANCER!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!

ive lost my dad,

ive lost my Monica,

ive lost another close aunt,

and now someone who has been a mother figure to me!!

WHY???

WHY??

WHY??

I can honestly say that no one else i personally know has gone through the kinda hell ive been through!!

LIFE's A BITCH ISNT IT??!!